The Day on the Job...

Today there was a faculty meeting and our department was in charge of catering the food. Since I'm the foody in the group, responsibility for the affair was unanimously delegated to me. It was totally low-key so there was no need for me to turn into Marshall Stewart. After deciding on a theme it was simply a matter of soliciting volunteers... with only a few twisted arms. Of course, I personally obsessed over the asparagus camembert bread pudding I baked and was up until, like, past 1am since it wouldn't set up quite right. But in the end, my colleagues and I did a fantastic job and the rest of the faculty were suitably impressed. It all turned out just fine.

Otherwise, I've been fielding a lot of personal questions lately from the students about my married life. When I first got the job I listened to someone from the counseling department who suggested that I keep quiet about my sexuality, at least for the first few years. I followed her advice though now I wish that I'd followed my gut and simply been open with the students and not just the faculty. I'm sure that the kids could have handled it better than the person who advised me thought. Now, I'm in this hole and I'm not sure how to get out of it. I hate the fact that I have been dishonest with the kids. I hate the fact that I will have to go through a big production when word gets out and I have to clarify things. I mean, I'm sure that few will be really surprised, but still. Mostly, I forget how I'm supposed to do this. It's been more than twenty years since I've had to come out to people who have a different idea about me. It just seems so foreign to me now.